Seeing my friends is getting harder. Would be easier if I liked going out to bars more. I’ve been thinking about hosting dinner parties as a way to do something with my friends. I have little worries that stop me. My dishes and knives/forks are all mismatched. The biggest table I have can sit maybe 5 people. I get worried that my friends won’t have a good time. That is the saddest possible outcome. At least they would be well fed? I would love to learn more conversation based games e.g. “two truths and a lie” where the whole game is played by talking to each other. This feels like a lost art that should’ve been taught to me.

I’m reading The Nickel Boys by Colson Whitehead, and I’m having a hard time understanding why I like its style so much. The writing is clear and direct, but it’s not impersonal or objective. I need to spend some more time thinking on this.

Big Thief’s Double Infinity is a continuation of their excellence, in big part due to Adrianne Lenker’s idiosyncratic songwriting. She paints vignettes that are so entirely hers and personal that they hit me sideways and pull me in, lending me her perspective to look at moments from my own life. Sad and hopeful, bitter and sweet. What a lovely album.